Rose Merrill
Rose Merrill at Toast in Carmel Valley

Some friends invited me to their place in Cabo with some friends. I got Montezuma's Revenge and stayed at their place while the rest of them went out. I started writing this song on a napkin while sitting by the sea.

Sitting on the sea of Cortez
Wondering what day it is
Not really knowing or caring
I listen to the birds and sea

I'll wait for you my friend
Till you come back to me
Brush the sand from my hair
Neath the coconut tree

Dancing boats line the shore
They sway with the breeze
Like yound girls in the night
Playfully taunt and they tease

Margarita's my friend
Till you come back to me
Brush the sand from my hair
Neath the coconut tree

Estamos en el sitio del Mar de Cortez
Que dia es no lo se tal vez
Espere me usted amigo
Tu vienes te vas e regresas
Piena la me cabeza
Del bajo del coca

Instrumental

Margarita's my friend
Till you come back to me
Brush the sand from my hair
Neath the coconut tree

My dad died of a sudden heart attack at the age of 45. Just before I turned 45, I thought, "What if I die at 45? What am I waiting for? Life is here, in the palm of your hand, you'd better take it."

Here you are in the middle of life
Is it everything you thought it would be
Is everything turning out alright
Have you done everything you wanted so far

Are you holding on to your dreams
Why can't you sleep through the dawn
Do you wake up in the middle of the night
And wonder where has my life gone

Well it's here in the palm of your hand
So take it cause it's yours
You've earned it
You deserve it

Met this guy just the other day
You said he reminded you of an elf
He quetly mumbled a few good words
One of them was to think of yourself

Someone is there and they're leading the way
You've got to open your eyes to see
Do you ever stop in the middle of the day
And wonder where has my life gone

Well it's here in the palm of your hand
So take it cause it's yours
You've earned it
You deserve it

Instrumental

yeah it's here in the palm of your hand
so take it cause it's yours
you've earned it you deserve it
yeah it's here

A good friend of mine had a cocaine addiction. She was a good person, but the drug brought her down. This was the first song I wrote.

She sits on the edge in her underwear
Still not dressed, taking her time
A closet full of fancy clothes, she used to wear
To the table, she lays out a line

Her dark eyes follow the pages of words she'd written
Heart she gave, to a man who loves many women
She hands me the pages, she says sing me the song
Packs her bag saying, "where did I go wrong?"

She's a fallen angel
No one knows where she came from
Give the shirt off her back if you needed one
Endless nights have taken a toll
On a girl lost all control
Given up too soon
Just a little too soon
A little too soon

She walks out the door
She knows she'll see him again
Call late at night
To meet like long lost friends
In a car, the lot of a bar
He'll take care of her needs
Can't kick habits
Plays until she bleeds

She's a fallen angel
No one really knows where she came from
Give the shirt off her back if you needed one
Endless nights have taken a toll
On a girl lost all control
Given up too soon
Just a little too soon
A little too soon

Where has her halo gone
It's right there by her side
Well she could pick it up if she wanted
She doesn't even try

Where has her halo gone
It's down there by her feet
If only she would pick it up
It would set her free
Set her free

She sits on the edge in her underwear
Still not dressed
Taking her time

I had just left my home, and husband after 23 years, and gone to L.A. to continue writing and singing my songs. I was not going to let anything get in my way. It was time.

Don't you see you can't buy me, I'm not for sale
Saw a photograph late last night
Dark shadows under my eyes
Not gonna let it bother me
Get the show on the road

Tears of laughter, tears of joy
It's time to let them roll
No more hiding like a silent child
It's time to rock your soul

No more, fairytale world
Cinderella's free
Got a place of her own today
Come and go as she please

Chimes ring at the stroke of midnight
Fiery chariot waits
Pick one last flower strolling through the garden
Drop it by the car door and peel away

Good-bye Alice I'll be back for you
When the time is right
Heading to the city to follow a dream
Like a spirit in flight

No more, fairytale world
Cinderella's free
Got a place of her own today
Come and go as she please

Feel the rhythm of a heartbeat
Take me away
Sail around the seven seas
With you as my sail

No turning back
Cause I've made up my mind
Get the show on the road
No more hiding like a silent child
It's time to rock your soul

No more, fairytale world
Cinderella's free
Got a place of her own today
Come and go as she please

Don't you see you can't buy me
I'm not for sale

A neighbor came to me one morning in his bathrobe, holding a beer. He said, "She left me". I asked, "Why?" He said, "She'd come back if I'd quit drinking." I said, "There you go!" He said, "Hell,l I'd quit drinking if she'd come back." He spent the day with me, and that night I wrote this song.

Old man, golden years, tries not to show his tears
Hangs his head kicks the dirt with his shoe
Old man, drunken years, tries hard to hide his fears
Says he's mean, hands me blue ribbon beer

Says he gave her all he had
After so many years
Was he so bad
In a trance, she walked out in the night

She'd come back if he'd quit drinking
He'd quit drinking if she'd come back
She'd come back if he'd quit drinking
He'd quit drinking if she'd come back

He said "no one really gives a damn
If I live or die
I'm just an old man

I raised my arms around his sun weathered neck
Then he said, "you made my day"
We both held tight

Not much more to say
He emptied his can and got one more from the fridge

She'd come back if he'd quit drinking
He'd quit drinking if she'd come back
She'd come back if he'd quit drinking
He'd quit drinking if she'd come back

Instrumental

She'd come back if he'd quit drinking
He'd quit drinking if she'd come back
She'd come back if he'd quit drinking
He'd quit drinking if she'd come back

I hear him whistle a moment or so
Then why he cries as he lets go
He's not too drunk
To have his heart broken in two

Old vet saluted as I drove away
He said, "God bless" and started to sway
I smiled at him and honored his salute from the car

I was just trying to get the message, "Trust me", through in a song no matter what happened in a past relationship.

Baby you've got to trust me
I know they left you before

I know they left you and closed the door
Well baby my door is waiting
Baby you've got the key to my door
This is an invitation
Won't you please come in

I see you watching the moon
You see me watching you
Then one tiny shooting star
Reminds me
It's not too soon

I'm gonna trust that star
I'm gonna touch his heart
I'm gonna make him my man
It really can't be that far

Baby you've got to trust me
I know it's not easy for you
Well I've been holding back too
Baby my door is waiting
Baby you've got the key to my door
This is an invitation
Won't you please come in

I see you watching the moon
You see me watching you
Then one tiny shooting star
Reminds me
It's not too soon

I'm gonna trust that star
I'm gonna touch his heart
I'm gonna make him my man
It really can't be that far

I'm gonna drive his car
I'm gonna make him my man
It really can't be that far

Baby you've got to trust me

While in L.A. Mr. Seducer/Producer became obsessed with me. I knew I had to get out of L.A. and get myself back together. So I came home and settled by the river.

Pull back the sheets, let the dreams escape
A new day dawns
You drink your coffee, and I'll drink my tea
You look at me mysteriously
You say, "who are you?"
Where did you come from?

I'm just a simple girl in a grown up world
With a head full of dreams
Just a simple girl in a grown up world
With a head full of dreams

You surprise me with rose petals
scattered on the sheets
Then you lie on the sofa all night
Mumbling in your sleep

I close my eyes, I can't close my ears
I hear every word that you say
Thank God for these pillows
I bury my head and I pray
Bury my head and I pray

Cause I don't need your bed of roses
But you never understood
I tried to explain myself
Never did me any good

So when you went to work today
I loaded my truck
Legs shaking bolting out your door
Good-bye and good luck

Well I would've said good bye to you
But you'd never let me leave
Crazy man accusing me
I had nothing up my sleeve

Now I sit by the river
Just to watch it flow
I'm just a simple girl
In a grown up world
With a head full of dreams

Just a simple girl
In a grown up world
With head full of dreams

Pull back the sheets
let the dreams escape
A new day dawns

I knew I was falling in love, and trying not to, so I went away for a few days, but I ended up calling him and drove back home and surrendered to the situation.

Hope it's not too late to call
You said call if I needed to talk
Why I drove hours away from you
You're in my every thought

Yeah I'm a little bit high
Am I not making sense to you
But I'm speaking straight from my heart
Which is just starting to open again

I'm thinking of driving home
Just to be with you
Just to be with you
I'm thinking of driving home
Just to be with you
Just to be with you

Thinking space would do me some good
Why I fight with my emotions
That's what I like about you
What you do without comotion

I'm thinking of driving home
Just to be with you
Just to be with you
I'm thinking of driving home
Just to be with you
Just to be with you

I've been doing all of the talking
Not quite sure where I stand
I'm dangling here on this bar stool
Ready to change my plan

I'm thinking of driving home
Just to be with you
Just to be with you
I'm thinking of driving home
Just to be with you
Just to be with you

I'm thinking of driving home
Just to be with you
To be with you

 

In the beginning of my relationship with my current husband, I was asked by someone, "Are you ready?" I said I'm ready as I'll ever be. This song formed around that answer and became "Ready as I'll ever be to love a man like you, gentle and true."

There's no pressure, there's no pain
Just your reassuring voice
Lets me know everythings
Gonna be all right

I feel like I'm gliding
Over white puffy clouds
On a deep blue sky
With green grass and butterflies

Purple lupin paint the field
I see you walking down the road towards me
In your faded jeans and your worn out tee
Well are you ready
Are you ready
Are you ready

Ready as I'll every be to love a man like you
Gentle and true, a man like you
Gently and true a man like you

Say you waited all your life
For a girl like me
I say, "you don't even know me"
But in the back of my mind somehow I think you do
You know me better than I know myself

Then you take me for a slow drive
In your black Chevy truck
Up a long windy road
We don't say much

The trees, they form a canopy
It's like a forrest with a waterfall
And the suns shining through the trees
On you and me, it's all green

Well are you ready
Are you ready
Are you ready
Ready as I'll every be to love a man like you
Gentle and true, a man like you
Gently and true a man like you

Many times our paths crossed
And we walked opposite ways
Darling, this time, I hope we stay

There's no pressure, there's no pain
Just your reassuring voice
Lets me know everything's
Gonna be all right
And you hold me all through the night
You know I'm hanging on with all my might

With a man like you gentle and true
A man like you gentle and true
A man like you

While dating my current husband, he had to go away for the winter for his job. I didn't want to say good-bye.

What, would you do with me
If you found me on your doorstep
And I didn't want to leave

Would you take my hand
Inside of yours, hold me closely
Like you did before, so tenderly

I know you gotta go away for the wintertime
You know I gotta stay here and serve my time
It won't be easy I've been glued to your side
Your eyes meet mine

I don't wanna say good-bye
I don't wanna say good-bye

I don't wanna say good-bye
I don't wanna say good-bye
So I guess I'll see you soon

If I called you up, said I've had enough
I need you now would you come pick me up
And take me with you

There we stood arm in arm
You dried my tears, and said "try be strong"
I need you too

I know you gotta go away for the wintertime
You know I gotta stay here and serve my time
It won't be easy I've been glued to your side
Your eyes meet mine

I don't wanna say good-bye
I don't wanna say good-bye
I don't wanna say good-bye
So I guess I'll see you soon

I was staying in a crummy motel room with my current husband because he had to be there for a job. The carpet was old and stinky and so was the bed. I didn't want to be there, but I wanted to be with him. I woke up one morning and said "God Knows I love You."

I don't know if you'll ever know just what you mean to me
I'm gonna spend the rest of my life showing you
I'm gonna go with you

When we're out on the road, a strange place I don't know
You make me feel at home
Found in your loving arms, lost in your eyes
Kiss the world good-bye

And God knows I love you
Oh how I love you
Yes I do
And God knows I love you
Oh how I love you
Yes I do

When you open the door at the end of the day
I'll always be there
Feel your hard working hands soft on my skin
You let me in

You lay me down by your side I slowly melt inside
I can't help myself
You gave me water when my well ran dry
I'm glad to be your bride

And God knows I love you
Oh how I love you
Yes I do

And God knows I love you
Oh how I love you
Yes I do

Well I don't know if you'll ever know just what you mean to me
I'm gonna spend the rest of my life showing you
I'm gonna go with you